An Epoch.

L-R: Arvin, Tine, Elsa and Macky


L-R: Yours truly, Kalyx, Bullet, Monic and Wej


L-R: Qiel, Thea, Miko, Steph, Kalyx and Bullet

Howdy everyone! I just finished watching NBA and did some photo grabbing from Elsa's multiply before I blog about our vacation in Boracay.

Wait, wait for it... All I can say is it was such a blast! It was my 2nd time to visit the island, but my 1st time to be with Mikong and friends. Our anticipation wore off, the trip was so much more than we thought it would be. This trip was dedicated to Bullet, who pretty soon will move to New York (SOB SOB) it was also a celebration for us, friends, graduating and taking our NLE (which we are all praying for...). Dud was there to accompany me to and from, he was present during meals, but other than that he gave me some space to hang with my friends. :) Bullet's sister (and their boyfriends) were present as well.

Our stay was enjoyed to the highest extent. From everyday activities to happy hour/night drinking and laughing all night. I am indeed lucky to have met these guys. This vacation is only the start of our many escapades to come. But for now, I will surely remember this trip. I love you guys!!!

My luggage is packed! I swear I am NOT excited. I am NOT excited. Unlike Mikong and Qiel who are hitting the gym at this very moment... Ha ha. Okay, name dropping. So what? Its quite sunny today and hopefully madala siya sa Island. Don't you agree, guys?

It is time to relax, unwind, drink, laugh and have fun. I shall see you everyone. Kiss and hug!

At last, our 3 months worth of review is finally over and thus, examinations came. As I entered the hallway of my assigned building and classroom I kept on thinking that this too, shall pass. I had given my best, critically thinking and rationalizing wise and all I [we] can do now is HOPE and PRAY. :)

As my Dud would say, "Tapos na Baby, there's no point dwelling on it. Move on... Bukas Boracay na ha?" - HA HA. Okay, so the last sentence was edited, but truth aside, my boyfriend and friends are going to Boracay tomorrow. Kahit umuulan... HA HA. Geez. Hopefully it wont BAGYO by the time we get there. I've done my packing and it makes me laugh 'coz halata na excited ako. Who wouldn't be? It is a well deserved vacation for us and good thing I am able to go (despite having a chauffeur) OKAY LANG!!! :)

See you tomorrow guys!

PS Painted my nails black. Gaya gaya si Mother. Ha ha. Another PS I will be able to use my new Ray Ban specs. Thanks Mum!

Okay, so I just gor home from UST, finished my 3 exams and now I am hoping for a GOOD RESULT.

I was not able to go online last night because of my 21% anxious level HA HA HA. I decided to study with Nica, who was stranded in our place due to "walang masakyan" at "walang magsusundo" situations.

Moving on, today was our 1st day of NLE. I was able to sleep well (6 hours of sleep was enough, thank you very much) brewed myself a cup of coffee, toasted some left over pizza, brought a bar of chocolate, and went to take a shower and fix myself up. I wasn't feeling giddy or nervous at all, probably it was due to Dud's PEP TALK on our way to UST. Upon entering my designated building, I felt like I was taking my UST entrance exams all over again. Imagine being assigned to Faculty of Engineering where I DID take my entrance exam, 4 years ago. Ang NOSTALGIC ng feeling, ika-nga. To my surprise, my room assignment was full of TECSON examinees as well! I never thought my Dud's surname was THAT famous. Ha ha. Ang buong akala ko kasi sa Cebu siya nag originate. But no! They were from Bulacan and Ilocos. One Tecson woman approached me with a smile on her face saying, "LAHAT NG TECSON, PAPASA." - Siyempre ako naman, GO NA GO NA GO LANG! Ha ha ha. Hopeful at the same time, I am striving for it.

I want to say thank you for my intact memory, for remembering the things that I needed to remember. As what I've said, 2 exams to go at maaalisan na kaming lahat ng isang GIGANTIC na tinik! If I were to evaluate today's exams... I'd rather not. Never count the chickens until the eggs are hatched. But all I can say is... I am doing everything that I can in giving my best.

Good luck to everyone!

Hello! Today was meant for us, reviewers to rest. But unfortunately rest MEANS study. Ha ha. Talk about resting huh. In exactly 2 days, we will taking a test that will be added to the book of our lives. As I said in my entry last night, we all have our selfish reasons why we want to pass, but as June 6 and 7 comes, we will have to do our best, to make that goal within reach.

I am not an ace student nor am I a flunking one. I consider myself as an average one. Not TOO high, just the achieving the right set of grades to help me make it through. I study whenever it is needed and with my luck and prayers (and hard work SIGE NA NGA!) I am able to make it through. As I sit here in front of my laptop with my reviewers cluttered in front me, with a ribbon tied around my forehead, a bottle of water to hydrate me and a classical music heard in my background, I have started my "study marathon". It's funny coz honestly, I am NOT used to this kind of studying. I am trying my very best not to stress myself kasi it will not do me any good. :) Chain messages are ALWAYS sent in my phone for GUIDANCE or GOOD LUCK, whatever you may call it. Most people pass it on, but others, like me, don't. I tell you, mas nakakapraning lang kaya pag pumansin ka ng mga ganon na bagay. Ha ha ha. Moving on, I have a short attention span when it comes to studying, probably because I haven't done "this" in a long time. :D I am in constant need of taking numerous breaks just to keep me sane. HA HA. And hopefully as I sleep for two more nights, I will be able to maintain each and every learning (tiny or big in detail) in my [non-existent] brain and just do my very best for this... :)

May God be with us all, God speed!

And I'm back!

I've been wanting to blog but due to my "in-demand" schedule ha ha, I guess I may have slacked off a bit.

3 more days and I'll be facing probably one of the challenging obstacle in my life... I have been doing what I can to prepare myself and I just hope that everything will turn out well in the end. Not just for me, but for my boy friend and friends too.

In my personal reason, I do NEED to pass that exam. For it will be my golden ticket to do whatever it is I want for myself next. Which is finding what my real passion in life is. I use to envy those people that are gifted. No matter how big their talent is or how small, the point is, they have something that no one else has, their "talent". Everything is changing as we grow old and now that I AM old (20 years of age, thank you very much), I am still CLUELESS on what I should do with my life.

I have one more option, one more chance to find what my passion is. And that is why I need to do good this June 6 and 7, 2009.

With everything that has been said, I really need the wisdom, guidance, confidence and prayers.

:)

For tonight I am bound to write 2 entries, both that are written FIRST in my journal before blogging it here directly.

People can be so cruel, judgmental and nosy at times. They tend to let their tongues loose like a machine gun and begins to fire away even without them noticing that they are disturbing or hurting other people. They can also be manipulative. A simple thing can become sooo complex which results to misunderstanding and miscommunication.

People are gullible and deceitful at the same time. It is human nature to save themselves first before others. They will step on others just to reach their goals or just to prove their point. Or JUST to make themselves look better. Pathetic, right?

I should be the one to know because I've been there. As a victim and as a suspect. PERIOD. We can never say that we are mature enough to make the right decisions or to trust our gut feelings. We are always struggling, trying to find the answers to questions that has no answers to begin with. There is a part of us that will always be young no matter how hard we try to mature ourselves up. We are fooled by others, without us even noticing, we are also fooled by ourselves. We try to justify our actions so as to save our ass off. But the truth is... We are ALL the same. We lie. We cheat. We steal (not in a exaggerated way, of course.) and it is a shame because as much as we want to defend ourselves, it only sums up to this: People ARE cruel, judgmental, and nosy MOST of the time.

A sad little cycle in the human race.

Expressive Aphasia.

I think I have one of those. I really find it hard allowing my thoughts cross the other side. No matter how hard I try, I always think of "ethics" or "manners" rather than expressing my own. The words exist in my mind, but I can't put it into phrases or sentences. As a result, I end up confusing other people... Even confusing myself. And here I am, unconsciously undergoing in a state of regression. Constantly trying to convince myself that this "mental inability" that I have is somehow connected with my lousy spinal discs. Blah blah blah.

Here I go again. I JUST CAN'T HELP MYSELF TO VOICE IT OUT.

For someone who is (a) Histrionic slash Narcissist, speaking in front is MY downfall. BUTT FUCKS.

I had my very first Cartimar experience with Mikong, Nica and Basil. They were bound to purchase their new "baby" and as an annoying little girl I am, I invited myself to come with them. Tagging Mikong along. He he.

I swear Cartimar is a DOG LOVER'S HAVEN. With all those cute MUTTS (He he he) for a reasonable price. A few darlings caught my attention: a Dachshund, a Beagle, whatchamacalit a dog that looks like a lion? HA HA. I was thinking of "Pomeranian" pero iba pala yun ha ha. But anyway, my point is... I WANT EVERY DOG THAT'S ON SALE!!! They are sooo adorable! I just couldn't stop myself from smiling sheepishly and playing with them. Nica and Bas was able to buy their dog for only 1,800. A British shmna, crossed breed dog (I forgot what's it called, sorry!) and wait for it... Ang cute niya talaga.

I'll try to save some dough so I can buy my brother another Dachshund (In loving memory of our own, Lans Hamilton Tecson). And when I become FILTHY RICH in the future, I can assure you my glass house will be filled with those lovable creatures.

Kiss kiss kiss!

PS I'll try to sign up in PAWS or in any animal activist rights association. MUST LOVE ANIMALS!

Lagi ko sinasabi sa sarili ko na HINDI na ako magiging masama lalo na sa mga tao na hindi ko kakilala. Hanggang kanina... Nasira ko yung "oath" ko na yun.

Sa review namin ngayong araw, doon ako naka-experience ng isang NURSING STUDENT na ubod ng ingay at WALANG hiya sa mga tao sa paligid niya. Isama mo pa ang mga kaibigan niya na kung makipag usap sa isa't isa (HABANG NAG RREVIEW) e akala mo nasa PALENGKE. Ni hindi man nila naisip na REVIEW ang pinasok nila at hindi para mag CHISMISAN habang nasa review. Buti sana kung may SENSE ang pinag uusapan nila, kaso WALA e. Ang puro narinig ko lang ay KA-SKWATERAN at ka-WALANG KWENTANG usapan. Hindi na talaga nahiya e, yung boses ang lakas lakas pa tapos ang LUTONG pa mag mura tapos KUNG MAKIPAG USAP SIYA SA MGA KABIGAN NIYA, E AKALA MO NAPAKA-TAAS NIYA NA URI NG TAO. Isipin niyo na lang si Regina ng Mean Girls, pero itong walang hiyang studyante na ito, e sobrang sobrang UBOD ng PANGIT at sobrang walang BREEDING!!! May lakas loob pa mag taas ng paa e JUSMIYO kami nakaupo sa harap niya. Akala mo naman ang ganda ng paa niya. Kapareho niya ang paa niya: PAREHAS SILANG PANGIT at KULUBOT.

I sweaaaaaar! Kung kayo ang nasa lagayan ko, ganito din mararamdaman niyo. Pinalaki ako ng maayos ng aking mga magulang. Hindi ko man matatawag na ELITE ang kolehiyo na napasukan ko, sa sarili ko natuto ako paano kumilos ng maayos at magkaron ng HIYA SA SARILI at RESPETO para sa ibang tao. Ngayon alam ko pa kung saan siya nag aral ng college, isa lang masasabi ko: SINISIRA NIYA ANG PANGALAN NG ESKUWELAHAN NIYA AND THAT STUPID M*THERF*CKER SHOULD LEARN HOW TO SHUT HER F*CK MOUTH UP!!!

Alam ko hindi niya ito mababasa dahil alam ko isa siyang JOLOGS. Pero kung mabasa mo man ito: WALA KANG KWENTANG KASAMA SA REVIEW. WALA KANG RESPETO SA IBANG TAO. WALANG HIYA KA. HINDI KA MARUNONG LUMUGAR NG MAAYOS. IPASOK MO SA KOKOTE MO: PUMAPASOK KA SA GAPUZ PARA MAG REVIEW AT HINDI PARA MAKIPAG USAP NA AKALA MO NASA PALENGKE KA. MAHIYA KA. AYUSIN MO ANG PAA MO. AYUSIN MO ANG UGALI MO. AYUSIN MO SARILI MO. AT KUNG PWEDE SA SUSUNOD TUMAHIMIK KA NA LANG BWISET KA! NABABASA MO?! BWISET KA TALAGA! SHUT UP BREED-LESS SON OF A BEEZWAX!

PS Isama mo na din mga kaibigan mo na walang breeding din. Pwede ba? O.O

Rain rain please stay but don't wet Freddy away.

I got up this morning hearing the sound of rain splashing through our windows and I was up and about. I instantly remembered wanting to go to school, raining everyday just to get that extra cold effect inside our classroom. Plus I've always wanted to wear my jacket(s), so that I won't look like an ORDINARY student in our ordinary crowd. Ha ha. But moving on, a lot has happened today. It was my TIME OF THE MONTH, meaning: grumpy attitude, KRUMPS (ha ha!), short-fused attention span. Thankfully Freddy was a dear when I was PMS-ing on him during the afternoon of our review. Today, we also talked about the different personality disorders, which gets me every time. As usual, I see myself having a HISTRIONIC, NARCISSIST, BORDERLINE and an OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE personality disorder(s)- all of them can be seen in my so-called personality. Teehee. So much for being a WEIRD-O.

I was able to eat manggang hilaw with bagoong in a stick today. YEHEY! Thank you Freddy and Robert for accompanying me to buy and for bearing my alamang-ish breath. HE HE HE. And lastly, I was able to do something for someONE. I decided to buy isaw and barbeque on my way home and while I was waiting for it to be cooked, I saw a stray dog, waiting for some "blessing" to come his way. So I figured of buying an extra barbeque just for him. Good thing Freddy and I was able to lure him and thus we were able to feed him. Kahit papano. :) Someday when I become FILTHY rich, I will make sure to build up shelters for those homeless animals. Someday, someday.

Phew! Tomorrow we won't be having our review, instead we are bound to attend a seminar so this gives me an excuse to watch One Tree Hill tonight. (AS IF I NEED AN EXCUSE HA HA!) That's it! Arrivederci amici!

For quite some time now I have been experiencing a nagging sacral pain which was quite an unbearable feeling for me. But I was lucky enough to be referred to a good doctor at a well known hospital to check up on me.

This pain I am referring to was really excruciating. I even remember at that same day it got really painful, it made me cry like a baby and all I ever did was complain about it. But as what I've said, I am lucky enough that I was able to meet up with a doctor which examined me, prescribed me medicines and gave me an order for a MRI test. The medicines he gave me made me feel a lot better: from a stabbing, friction rubbing, 10/10 pain it was reduced to a 6/10 pain scale. Relieving my sacral area made it better as well. So just imagine, I was restricted from sitting even for 5 minutes, this "pain" would surprisingly just appear. So I had 2 options: either to stand or lie down. Now talk about living like a bum. HA HA HA.

Anyway, last April 29, I had my very first MRI experience. Nervousness - was my initial feeling. Not because I am claustrophobic but because I was nervous about my results. With what the radiologists would see. Ack. The whole test took 30 minutes, and trust me I did NOT feel comfortable at all. I wanted to sleep, to relax, but it was noisy and I was feeling cold and I was perspiring cold sweat HA HA HA. That 30 minutes felt like an hour to me, which made me realize that I should've brought my iPod with me. Is iPod considered metal? HA HA. :D

May 5, 2009 - It was time for my check up after 1 1/2 weeks. Prior to this day, I was able to read my MRI results and three terms caught my attention: desiccation, theral sac and Tarlov cyst. Kinda funny because as I was reading it, I could not understand any of them. I just wanted to barge my way into the doctors office to get my results interpreted in Layman's term RIGHT AWAY. Again, patience is one of my greatest traits and that's what we (my Dud, brother, and yours truly) did. We waited PATIENTLY for our number to be called and after a few hours... We entered the doctors clinic.

I was thinking of a worst case scenario for a few days. Something wrong with my spine, or disks even. But as I was told, your thoughts become things, so I shifted my thoughts into something else. I'd rather have my doctor say na UMAARTE LANG AKO, rather than hearing a diagnosis which my mind cannot process. He he. But as he reviewed my films... All he pointed out was that my disks WAS ALL DRIED UP. I'm like, "WOAH! Do disks dry up?" - siyempre sa utak ko lang nasabi yan. I was too shy to ask questions. So my doctor continued with his explanations. He said something about a cyst (which I pretended not to hear ha ha ha) and well yeah... My effin disks that was DRIED UP!!! - That was all there is to it. Badabing-badaboom! A very unusual thing to happen to me since I am ONLY TWENTY YEARS OLD! So I stood there, not knowing what to say, although I had a handful of questions to ask: 1. Why did the pain occur suddenly, 2. Why was the pain excruciating and unbelievably painful, 3. Why did Mefenamic Acid failed to relief me from the pain, 4. What does he mean by my disks drying up, 5. How did my disks dry up at the first place (AT PWEDE PALA IYON MANGYARI?!), 6. Are there any remedies to RE-HYDRATE MY DRIED DISKS? (HA HA! PARANG PAGKAIN LANG AMPOTA.) 7. Are there any complications?, 8. Does he have any interventions for me? ETCETERA ETCETERA. Knowing the well-mannered young lady I am, I wasn't able to ask any of these. Instead, he gave me a sheet of paper that included some accepted and not accepted postures and body alignments and some therapeutic exercises for me. I was also overshadowed by my Dud who was very relieved from my doctors words of wisdom. He reassured me that it was nothing serious (THANKFULLY!) but then again... MY DISKS ARE DRIED UP!!! - As we were about to leave, my brother asked me, "Wala ka ba itatanong?" - dito ako nagising sa katotohanan. I had a handful of questions and I need answers... NOW.

My doctor was kind enough to spare a few more minutes even though he still has other patients. So there I started bombarding him with my questions. HA HA HA. To my surprise... I wasn't able to get a concise answer. Because according to the studies he has read. Well. There wasn't much to read on. HA HA HA. OH GREAT. JUST GREAT. According to him, what I "have" is very rare and irreversible. Meaning, there isn't ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD I can do to re-hydrate my f*cking disks. - Boogum! Rubbed into my face. Ha ha ha. With no definite answers to my WHY's, WHAT's, and HOW's, I was told three things: 1. Avoid becoming OBESE (Finally! A reason to motivate me to enroll in a spinning class) 2. DO NOT SMOKE (As if I do.) and 3. Take care of my body alignment - and hopefully this "pain" that nagged me a few weeks ago won't return any time soon.

But for now. Celebrex, Tramadol, swimming, cycling and proper body alignment are my new best friends. They better not let me down. Ha ha ha.

Arrivederci amici! abbracci e baci! Ü

I have been out for quite some time now because of the numerous I had to watch over the past few days. I am currently watching How I Met Your Mother and America's Best Dance Crew and are enjoying both shows equally.

But anyway, I have 3 topics to choose from on what I should write, Pachelbel in the background is helping me out in some way. So here goes.

I was cleaning my disastrous room when I came across with some few sentimental stuffs that instantly reminded why it was sentimental at the first place. I could not exactly explain what it was, but somehow I was glad that I was able to find that certain "stuff" by random. This stuff I am referring to was a notebook, a notebook filled with my "glory day" messages. I'm sure all of you wouldn't understand what it was and I am not expecting you to. The funny thing is, being able to reminisce, it didn't brought me to tears as it normally used to. But instead it made me smile, it made me cherish my memories even more, it made me thankful for having an intact memory, being able to reminisce whenever, wherever, and however I want to. It has been 5 years since that notebook got updated but I doubt that it will be updated EVER again. Ironic right? It's like I want it to get updated, but at the same I don't want to. Ha ha. As a good friend-slash-batch mate of mine said, this "invisible tension" should not be entertained.

So for the sake of keeping it inside my memory box, I decided to let this out for my sake. Ha ha. Everything is not yet certain right? But still, I am willing to give it my best, to do everything I can... For this.

Phew. I guess that would be all. Arrivederci, amici! Baci ed abbracci!

Today is Trizia Lim's birthday. :)

I just want to share a little something about her: We were not "that" close, I don't exactly remember when we started talking BUT one memory that will forever remain in my mind was when she wrote a letter in my notebook, which made me know her "more", wherein I was deeply touched.

Aww, yes, Ish, a person like YOU, deserves to beee haaaaaappy! :) Hopefully, one of these days, we'll bump into each other. Until then, HAPPY BIRTHDAAAY ISH-KISH!!! :)

BWISET YUNG MAMANG TUMULAK SAKIN PASAKAY NG LRT! NAHAWAKAN PA NIYA TULOY LIKOD KO! PWEDE NAMAN MAGHINTAY NG TURN SA PAG SAKAY DIBA?!

ISA PA... NAKAKAINIS TALAGA ANG ISANG BUILDING KAPAG WALANG DECENT BATHROOM. KAYA NGA TINAWAG NA BATHROOM E, ISA ITO SA PINAKA MALINIS DAPAT!

I swear, I wish I can have my own handy capsule with a BATHROOM inside. ACK!

As you all know, I am currently attending my review class at SM Manila, wherein UNBELIEVABLE PEOPLE that lacks good manners exist.

Bullet, Kalyx, Elsa, Freddy and I decided to eat at the food court, siyempre, as expected, madaming tao kasi lunch break. I was scouting for some free tables for us to sit in. A total count of 2 tables ang nakita ko: 1st attempt, INILAGAY NA NGA NI FREDDY ANG BAG NIYA SA CHAIR, PERO MERON PA DIN MIDDLE AGED MAN NA AGAD AGAD UMUPO SA TABLE NA UNA KONG NAKUHA. As an end result, umalis na lang kami. 2nd attempt: a free table, UUPO NA LANG AKO, BIGLA MAY PUSANG INAMOY NA DALAWANG BABAE NA SAKSAKAN NG PANGIT AT BASTOS NA UMUPO SA TABLE KO. GRABE TALAGA!!! Ang isang NORMAL na tao na may pinag aralan, magkakaron ng hiya para mang agaw ng upuan o di kaya mag tatanong man lang kung uupo ba ako sa table o hindi. Diba? Tae sila! Ayan, nasabihan ko tuloy sila na "WALANG HIYA NA MGA TAO." HAHAHA. Titingin pa sila, e totoo naman. BWISET!

Sa mga panahon na ito, ninanais ko talaga magkaron ng social separation from those "kind" of people, to my "kind" of people. Sorry ang sama ng dating, pero nakakainis talaga e. In general, nakakainis ang mga tao na walang breeding!!!

HA HA. Ayan, hate post tuloy nangyari. I might post something lesser evil later. For now, I am off to my marathon once again.

Arrivederci, amici!

At long last I get to visit my Ortho at MDH yesterday for my FRIGGIN' SACRAL PAIN!

Funny, I'm not used to visiting hospitals anymore. Maybe because after spending 3 years in duty at a hospital, you'll get sick of it eventually. HA HA. Or in layman's term: NATATAKOT LANG AKO. You see, I have a nagging sacral pain for almost 5 days now, my 1st doctor prescribed me a Mefenamic Acid, which BTW, DID NOT WORK. I also have one medicine, but heck it's for OLD PEOPLE!!! HAHA. No way am I gonna drink that one. NO SIR!

So yesterday, I was waiting for this day to arrive. My doctor, dr. I. Examined me and as I was telling him my history, eh naiiyak na ako. Just remembering the excruciating pain I experienced on my birthday... UNBEARABLE. I was literally crying while we were having our review. Tch. So the usual physical examination was done and ah, X-ray was ordered. I've yet to get my results tomorrow, but as doctor I. examined my film, he didn't see anything wrong with my spine and sacral area. He then suspected the pain I'm experiencing may have something to do with one of my discs... Harhar. OR OR OR, he even mentioned that I may have a SPINA BIFIDA. ECKHHH! Which means that my tail bone did not ENTIRELY connect with my sacral bone. Or wherever it is supposed to connect. Ha ha ha. Knowing the kind of person I am, I wasn't bothered at all. Naks... TAPANG EFFECT. Ha ha. But anyway, he prescribed me new meds which helped me sleep last night and I am scheduled for MRI soon.

Hopefully it isn't serious. Please, please, please. I am siiiick of lying all day, everyday! HA HA. All I'm saying is, I never want to develop this fear of sitting down because of the pain it will cause me. Ack.

Today, is back to review day. SANA LANG HINDI SUMPUNGING ANG LIKOD KO SA BUONG 5 HOURS NG REVIEW NAMIN. UTANG NA LOOB GUSTO KO MATUTO!!! HAHAHA!

Toodles! :)

Shuuucks namaaan! I haven't started reading my nursing books yet!!! Puro na lang ako internet and marathon ng series! HA HA. Hindi na ako sanay mag basa at paganahin ang utak ko. Eff. I NEED to read ASAP. This week, I SHOULD start. There is no other option, Tepang. JUST READ. Ha ha.

Tick tock. I've developed a peculiar obsession with chocolates, particularly Kit-Kat. I remember when I was in my senior HS, I would buy 2 bars of Kit-Kat white just to solve my craving for it. Now its back and I'm muching on 'em like craaazy which is bad... This would only 'cause me... Pimples. As if I need any more of them. Ha ha.

My inability to eat pastries is catching up on me as a result of my obsession for chocolates. Really now, the ONLY cake I can eat is Blueberry Cheesecake. The rest, down the trash can. So you see, hindi naman ako maarte kumain. In fact, I consider myself as hindi pihikan. I can and WILL eat anything. Basta ba walang itlog na halo. Oo, allergic ako sa itlog mo. Este, sa itlog, in general. Forgive my entry, as I was craving for some chocolates right about. NOW.

Toodles!

I've been meaning to let this out of my system and here it goes.

Its funny how a 5 years worth of friendship could ever go down the drain. I cannot register into my mind how it happened. Not so long ago, during my 18th birthday, everything was perfect. The words that has been said, were like music to my ears, it made me happy and hopeful. But as day went by, it then hit me... It was nothing but a big fat lie. Balony. Nonsense. Nothing. And even if I try my hardest to think what happened along the way, I know I won't find anything. Just like what we are now,.. NOTHING.

Crossing paths with them one of these days would really be awkward. I cannot imagine how it would turn out. Blah blah blah. Friendship... VOIDED.

First of all, I want to greet Stephanie Lorenz, a happy birthday! I hope she had a good one today!!! (: I love you!

I just had my late dinner, courtesy of my Mum and Subway. YUM YUM! I will now keep in mind that whenever I am craving for some MCDO burger, I'll munch on Subway instead. Bigger servings, healthier na, it has my favorite Red Iced Tea Lipton drink pa. SOLB! :P~

Tick tock tick tock. I can't wait 'til Monday comes so I could get this thing with my back looked at or diagnosed at already. Honestly? IT IS KILLING MEEE!!! Every itsy move I make, it gets me. Really now, get this thing over already! HAHAHA! - I am now losing my mind.

I want to have a How I Met Your Mother Marathon... Eff!

I'm back!!! Since I am on HOUSE ARREST today, I was able to watch numerous episodes of anime. YEP, you heard it right... I was watching anime while lying flat for almost 5 hours now. Friggin' sacral pain won't go away and it only gets worse every time I move! Ackkk! Thanks for this, I'm back wearing my binder again. FREAK IN THE HOUSE! HA HA HA.

Due to my boredom, I made an effort to dig up my old posts from my old blog. Looking back, I was giggling at my way of writing and expressing things. NENE na NENE ang dating e. My posts varied from family, friends, love, school and... Shmna. I found a few entries that made me remember of SOMEONE who was VERY VERY VERY DEAR to me. Those we're MY glory days, if I may say. Kind of ridiculous, don't you think? I just have this nagging habit to reminisce every once in a while. That is why they call me a HOPELESS SENTIMENTAL. Pishhh! But moving on, it's all memories. A lifetime of memories that I will never forget.

I'm on house arrest today. EFFIN' BACK PAIN.

I'll be having my x-ray this Monday, HOPEFULLY it's something minor. But heck, what an unbearable pain! HEEEEELP!

38 minutes left before I wait another year for my next birthday. I swear, and I am not exaggerating, this is one of the greatest celebration I ever had.

Remember Freddy's gift which he snuck inside my plastic envelope? Well... It wasn't a book, instead it was a picture frame with a sweet letter + a couple of our pictures. (: He also left a hidden gift beneath my curtains-both of his gifts that made me cry upon opening and reading them. I could not ask for more.

I also had a simple dinner with my family plus DB's, my Groupmates, Arvin&Kacee and of course, Freddy at TGI Fridays. Thank you Freddy for helping me out with the reservations and thank you for telling them that it's my birthday. HA HA HA.



I've said it before and I'll say it again: THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME THE HAPPIEST.Ü

Oooh, exactly 49 minutes to go before my BORN DAY.

I can still remember vividly what happened to me last year. I wasn't feeling that it was my "special day", I felt like my knees are trembling, that I have the weight of the world upon my shoulders... Quite impossible right? But unfortunately, last year was probably the HARDEST HEARTBREAK I have ever experienced. That is why, I marked my 19th birthday as a NO NO, one of the unfortunate days of my life.

But look at me now. A LOT HAS CHANGED. Everything turned out to be... Better.

Ackkk! I am not excited, I am not excited, I am not excited. :D I know what to wish for before blowing my candles. If there is any. He he.

Okay, my title sucked. HA HA. Just for the knock of it. Too bad Paramore is becoming MAINSTREAM already. What a pity.

» DECODE
[ ] You can decide for yourself.
[ ] You have a lot of pride in you.
[ ] You are a good liar.
[X] People can`t decode your thoughts.
[X] You have a close friend that changed his/her attitude.
[X] You are good at keeping secrets.
Total: 3

» MISERY BUSINESS
[ ] You have a body like an hourglass.
[ ] You hate someone because he/she likes who you like.
[X] You smile a lot.
[X] You don`t like bragging.
[X] You think people will never change. (Ex. Once a liar, always a liar.)
[X] You have many dreams in life.
Total: 4

» CRUSHCRUSHCRUSH
[X] You`ve seen someone check you out.
[X] You hate liars.
[X] An evening alone with the person you like is enough to make you happy.
[ ] You write songs.
[X] You keep having dreams with your crush in it.
[X] You like rock n' roll.
Total: 5

» THAT`S WHAT YOU GET
[X] You hate being blamed at.
[X] You tend to drown out your sense.
[X] You like silly things.
[ ] It`s hard for you to learn new things.
[X] You like hurting people. (Even if it`s your way of joking around, that counts.)
[X] You like winning fights. (Verbal, physical, any type of fight.)
Total: 5

» PRESSURE
[ ] You always spend your time wisely.
[X] You are scared of failure.
[X] You get nervous easily.
[X] If you don`t understand something, you`ll give up on it.
[X] You like being alone once in a while.
[ ] You have had trouble sleeping.
Total: 4

» EMERGENCY
[X] You are a good listener.
[ ] You watch TV a lot.
[X] You feel guilty easily.
[ ] You cry a lot.
[X] You know what love is.
[X] You`ll hold on to the person you like forever.
Total: 4

Just got home from our review. Another LRT day for me and Freddy and good thing it was windy outside! Ha ha. Less sweat, siguro nag-sakto sa clothes ko today ang cold weather. Ha ha.

Something funny happened today. You see, my BFF in the whole wide universe called me up... to greet me a HAPPY BIRTHDAY. I was puzzled and so I told her, "16 PALANG KAYA NGAYON! But thank you." - HA HA HA. She then confirmed with her friends what today's date was, indeed APRIL 16 PA LANG NGAYON. We both ended up laughing but really, her greeting made me happy and LAUGH out LOUD. Thank you, Stephanie Lorenz, Palma-Gil. HA HA HA. KISS KISS, HUG!

I had a great conversation with Freddy as we were hanging out by the poolside. Too much topics to remember, but there wasn't a dull moment during our "hang-out". And as usual we ended up reminiscing our "glory days" and "past" which made us laugh about it. During our conversation, it made me realize that I am a candidate for having a BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER. I will explain it some other time in my future entries. It was cut short because I still have a previous engagement to attend to: Christine Paula Duran's graduation slash birthday celebration dinner! Yahooo! That is why my camera is fully charged, ready for some future point and shoots.

Before Freddy left, I noticed my clear envelope became heavier and thicker than usual. A curious cat like me immediately peeked through my envelope and to my surprise I saw a view of a BOOK in it! I guess someone sneaked in my birthday gift for tomorrow. I just couldn't stopped myself from flashing my contagious sheepish smile. He he. Boy am I excited to see what book it is. Thank you Freddy! (:

I wish I can stay and blab some more, but I have to go get ready for Tine's dinner later. I MIGHT blog again later, to fight my sleepiness if ideas will flow freely in my non existent brain. Toodles!

PS Happy 7th to us, Freddy! XO!

I miss reading. I haven't been flipping the pages of A Million Little Pieces 'coz I'm still caught up with some stuffs. My BFF (in the whole wide universe ha ha) told me that it is a must read and as a humble follower, I scouted for a copy right away. It has been... some shmna months since I bought it, now it's all covered with dust. NO KIDDING.

I still have a handful of books in queue and my eyes are burning with the desire to read. HA HA. Now don't go telling me to read my nursing books, because I WON'T. Well... Maybe I will. Ha ha. PA-ONTI ONTI. Gahd. Blame my credit card, it gives me the urge to splurge on bookSSS kahit na meron pa ako sa bahay. I even left my Second Helpings in L.A. kasi hindi na kasya sa luggage ko! HA HA. Now all I need is a book shelf, to display my collection. Yuck, feeling.

Good thing I got my reading "fetish" from my father's side of the family. Someday books, I will read you all. Someday.

Ack! Exactly 2 days to go before I bid farewell to my teen days. I still can't believe it, YOUNG ADULT na ako! :D I mean, honestly? A random stranger from the street will NEVER believe me if I tell them: "HOY! BENTE NA AKO!" Why? Just LOOK AT ME. As in LOOK VERY CLOSELY. Ha ha. Looks can be deceiving though. Even my own family can't believe their eyes na BENTE na ako. And looking at my fast growing niece, nephews and cousins, ayan. Mas sapul sa mukha ko na TUMATANDA na nga ako.

But I'm not ready to be 20, yet. I still have a lot to do before I say buh-bye to my teen days. RIGHT. Enough na nga of this nonsense. All I'm trying to say is that... I have a few birthday lists up in my sleeves and I am not sure if it is within reach. HA HA.

Finally a new lay-out for my UN-UPDATED so-called blog. HA HA. I've been writing more in my Mikournal than online for the sake of using Freddy's gift for me last Christmas.

Well, well, well. I would want to welcome MYSELF in the world of BUM-HOOD. Last March 26, was our graduation which by the way was really chaotic, all thanks to the poor system of our school, yet memorable at the same time. But nonetheless, 799 students graduated, including ME and my circle of friends, which marks the beginning of a new phase in our lives. What better way to celebrate these fruitful events with the comfort of my family, friends and FREDDY. (:

Now all we need to surpass is the upcoming board exams. Good luck to all of us, may the force be with US. HA HA HA.

Toodles!